this page will be gone soon
Posted by: Kristan in Uncategorized on November 6th, 2009
Ill be deleting this page soon, In make way for a web-comic based on programming and yoga and other things that I care about. So say your good-byes and shed your tears now, because in a few weeks my inner thoughts will be destroyed in way for cartoons and cheap laughs. Just like real life.
Ups and downs
Posted by: Kristan in Books, Depression, experience on February 12th, 2009
So I’ve fallen off the wagon, a little bit. I try to do yoga everyday, stay positive and relaxed, but lately I’ve been nothing of the sort. The stress of everyday life is just getting to me. With my unemployed status that seems to be lasting a decade. Everything in my life seems to be slowly getting sucked into that same negative vibe. Like how a child gets sucked into daytime television, I’ve been sucked into depression. I also think that I’m starting to pull all my friends and family into it as well. I find that even they who are still employed and happy are starting to get the down feeling more frequently. I don’t know if its me that’s causing my friends and families depression but if it is that’s just more of an incentive for me to bust out of this funk.
So I’ve started to reread “the way of the peaceful warrior” which is just one of those books that really make you think and want to be better. Unlike allot of books on Buddhism which I find myself trying to just suck the knowledge out of instead of enjoying the book. The Way of the Peaceful Warrior is a book that I can relax on a Sunday afternoon and just absorb into. There’s a reason why it has lasted for so long and is still being published to this day.
Besides that, I smile for as long and as often as I can. Believe it or not but smiling makes you want to smile. It also makes other people want to smile which in return make you smile more! A beautiful scenario it is.
I stared to pay a little more attention to my diet. Eating junk food makes me sluggish and lazy. Being lazy makes me have more negative thoughts, and negative thoughts cause depression and more laziness.
So I believe, that with my few alterations in my diet and mental attitude I will become my healthy, joyous, energertic self one gain. Also with a little bit of help and positive thinking everything that I mean to achieve with be accomplished. Just can’t give up.
Its OK to Hate Me and Him
Posted by: Kristan in experience, meditation on February 9th, 2009
Enlightenment has nothing to do with other people, if you don’t want it to. It has everything to do with your inner self and your connection with the earth.
You don’t have to have unconditional love for absolutely every person that you come across, it doesn’t hurt if you can honestly do it, but you don’t need it. How close my soul is in touch with the earth is what I believe. The Gaia theory is a fine example of our connection with the earth. Everything is connected in one main stream of life, always rotating always shifting. Meditation, yoga, martial art practices are all form of helping us get back in touch the beat of life that flows through us and into the earth.
The earth has a rhythm that it works at. It speeds up and slows down but it stays at the same consistent tempo. This tempo is the same tempo that runs in our hearts, makes our steps to walk, our fingers to type, every movement for everyday activity. Cars, computers, stress, work , are unnatural. They’re actions that we created to suit our economy. Run different rhythms then nature intended.
Thats why these days people need more meditation, more focus to get back in touch with the earth. Each person is like a hair on an arm coexisting with each other through our roots in the arm. yet still completely independent interms of work and individuality. It helps a lot to get along with each other but its most important to be one with the earth and rhythm of Gaia.
A Staring Consent
Posted by: Kristan in Uncategorized on February 7th, 2009
Living in a larger city makes finding true happiness hard enough already. The human race isn’t meant to be surrounded by its own kind in mass amounts. Personal space, and comfort bubbles are constantly invaded without any effort. Making a leisure stroll down a street an irritating, frustrating expedition. Let alone having to deal with bad mannerisms.
Staring is never a necessary action for any scenario, and no body likes to be stared at. Not the homeless, not the rich, not the punks, or the indiscreet . As people strive for a better self everyone has to make the effort to also be a better civilian. Respecting others is a major step in respecting yourself and finding pure enlightenment. This not only means to not stare at others but to also not escalating instances when you get stared at (for what ever reason).
As the days pass everyone try to respect everyones personal space and remember to breath, stay calm and enjoy the fact that maybe your being starred at for a good reason, people show attraction in odd ways sometime. The cup is half full sometimes.
Dr.Steel
Posted by: Kristan in Books, Uncategorized on February 1st, 2009
So I was going to write about the flying spaghetti monster, but I am afraid that is going to have to wait till tomorrow. I have much more important information to tell.
As allot of people think that they are searching for enlightenment, really all that they are searching for is happiness. To be happy doing whatever it is that you are doing that that moment would be everybody’s dream come true. Whether it be working or relaxing or making supper would being everything.
Dr.Steel is a podcast, musician, community, webpage and more that is dedicated to fun, happiness and unity and world domination. Dr.Steel is a mad scientist figure that wants to change the world. Eliminate hate, war, famine, with his ever growing fan base of toy soldiers (boys) and scouts and nurses(girls) and robots.
Its a fun exciting concept that definitely needs more promotion. And if it getting large enough I can see it getting more serious and becoming a change that would be.. interesting.. If anything.
No Neti Nose
Posted by: Kristan in News, meditation, yoga on January 29th, 2009
Many of you may have seen this on Oprah but the Neti pot has to be one of the strangest procedures for cleaning your nasal passage that I have ever seen. I have yet to try it and I am quite excited to give it a whirl, but I will admit that I it will take me so serious time before I can muster up the courage to purposely enact the sensation of drowning just to have a clean nostril.
A Neti pot essentially is a small tea pot that you insert, the proportionally planned spout, into your nostril and till your head to the apposing side. After you fill the pot up with warm salt water. The water then flows through one nostril and out the other. Once half the pot is empty you then turn your head to the opposite side and repeat. Cleaning out both nostrils. How this works without having the luke warm salt water run down your throat cause you to gasp, choke, then spit up salty nose inners is a mystery to me, even though I have seen countless videos of successful nose cleaning on youtube(view discretion for this link).
I always had plans on asking a monk or even a meditation practitioner exactly what they do when a nostril gets clogged up before meditation. I guess this is one simple solution that they just might preform. Not only for meditation but for any worker that deals with dust, benefit from this item. I know when I used to do concrete forming that this little device would have come in handy at the end of the day.
If anybody owns a Neti pot please feel free to share your experience. It’s definitely an interesting little device that I hope to hear more about. Even if I’m not to sure if it’ll help achieve enlightenment or if it’s just insanity.
Take what you can get, then re gift it back
Posted by: Kristan in Uncategorized on January 27th, 2009
Yoga has become a nation wide phenomenon. With am yoga, power yoga, flexibility yoga, heat yoga, seniors yoga, childrens yoga, there’s a yoga for everyone and the family dog. With the help of companies like Gaiam, and Lulu lemon yoga has not only become an easy exercise to start but it has also become very fashionable.
Unfortunately, the meditation has been pulled out of yoga for commercial use. Turning it into a way to shape, tone and burn of those extra calories yoga has become more of a means to get the body of Jennifer Aniston, then a way to find peace in ones self. No one is saying that having a fit, healthy body is a bad idea or that working out in a gym is instant commercialism, just that yoga should also bring a tranquil state of mind with its physically demanding routine.
There are still great teachers out there that practice a more traditional yoga, whether it be vinyasa, kabbalah or one of the many other renditions. Everyone just needs to be careful on finding their instructor making sure that they get the one that best suits their goals and helps ease the mind, release the bodies tension back to the earth, and calm your breathing.
One Breath in front of the other and soon youll be walking out the door
Posted by: Kristan in Uncategorized, experience on January 24th, 2009
Having not done much yet, one thing that I have learned was the importance of breathing. The everyday breath that you have to keep your circulatory system active is not what I am talking about, but paying attention to breathing. Everyday, every moment, yoga, meditation, to waking up and driving to work, a person should always be conscious of their breath.
Its actually a lot harder then you think it is.
I didn’t really think that it would be hard until I tried. I started with conscious thought early in the morning when I woke and during morning yoga. “I don’t see what the big deal is” I thought. “This is easy, whats the big deal” I proclaimed, scoffing at the challenge before me. As the day progressed though I felt myself slipping, walking down busy streets, sitting on the bus, waiting for pedestrians to finish crossing at a cross walk that was already flashing a red hand, I started to forget my breath. I start to clinch. Work was even worse. With the hassle of budgets, deadlines, and protocol it made conscious breath damn near impossible.
I’m still working on it. I try to pay attention to my breathing at all times. It may be the hardest thing to do but later we’ll all sit back and laugh at our selves. Hard is the simple that doesn’t try.
